White Powder Gold, or Monoatomic Gold - An Authentic Ascension Process
The Truth Shall Set You Free
This post is about me.
Starting to wake up...
"It's all BULLSHIT." That's what I hear Peter (super-seer extraodinare) tell me on the other line of the telephone. If you had been there with me you would have seen the look of shock on my face. You would have heard the wheels of thought turning in my head as I felt the truth behind the words, and understood them as if I had known it all along.
Those words and proceeding sessions brought me back to life. I had been near-dead, living in a constant drama of the most hellish prison imaginable. This prison was my own thoughts of worthlessness, constant stress, and misalignment. I began to understand the archetypes of heaven and hell, and realized that heaven and hell are right here, right now. And I was in a living hell.
My programming has been deeply seated into my mind for a long time, and it's been releasing layer upon layer.
You see, I grew up in a religion filled with programming. Growing up Mormon has placed a TON of programming into me. Programming such as:
Jesus is the only path to God.
If I don't do my home teaching then I am a bad person.
If I don't read the scriptures daily, I will be open to greater tempation from the devil.
The church has all the answers.
I'm tired of hearing the constant "just pray, read your scriptures, and go to church and everything will be great." Well it's NOT great, and in fact it SUCKS.
It's the same scriptures that began my questioning. Questions such as:
If this is the church of Christ, then why isn't anyone here like Christ? Now, many of the people are wonderful, but they seem to lack TRUE AUTHENTICITY. Finding people who are truly authentic in the church is really hard to come by.
Why don't I get ANY answers at the temple, or feel ANY closer to God?
Christ taught we could become like him, and do even greater things. Of all my years going to church and studying and praying, I hadn't done anything near the level of Jesus.
I have begun questioning and trying to pay way more attention to what my own experience tells me, rather than rely on other's interpretations.
I still don't have it all figured out. That may be my struggle right now, is thinking that there IS anything to figure out.
If you can relate to this, please leave a comment.
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Comment by Jonathan Paul on February 12, 2012 at 5:26am -
I appreciate the comments, Joseph and Second I Chance. As this new chapter is beginning to unfold, the falsities must dissipate and be left with the beautiful truth.
Your comments have given me wonderful things to think about, forget, and release ;)
The thought that I'll carry with me today is:
"that it's this moment that you have to let go. there's no victory because there was never any loss. there was never anything to overcome. but the belief."Very nice.
Now what? Now comes the beginning. Now comes release and stop 'trying to make things happen.' Stop trying to 'win.'
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Comment by second i chance on February 10, 2012 at 8:32pm -
blessed, brother, Juancito. i really feel i can say that. the fact that we are the family that is Onlything, One. and because my character just experienced that chapter as well. i had a chakra clearing with Peter.
it's wonderful, isn't it? that elation of feeling free after so long? finally feeling how long held that breath was because now, it is released. and now, resentment. confusion. happiness and intensity and elation. but, you feel sore, right?
maybe, you tell me. i know i felt that. because, now the real path begins. the one where you understand how massively epic and commanding your ego has become. just doing it's job, it too, part of One, all just the many aspects of the massive infinite nature of consciousness and the hologram of here. the faketrix.
ready for the kicker? for all the revelation, so what?
feel that.
because that is the truth you are really seeking by writing this post. you pained, you endured, there were tears, and then a commercial break. then, more suffering, and withering hope on the vine, and minor triumph, and more failure. and exasperated cursing into the nothingness and feeling so alone.
and then release, a cliff hanger, and a preview of next season's new episodes.
cause, it's all just a story. on the same level of a cartoon you saw as a kid, Iron man, or any movie, and book you've read, any time you day dreamt. you get really into your favorite things. you forget that its fake and only just a story. you genuinely feel something for the protagonist, for the hero and his suffering and then eventual triumph.
but, it doesn't mean anything. literally. just a story. let it go. let it go. like you put down a book. turn off the t.v. or leave the theatre, just the same way. leave it and any opinion you have of it behind.
disregard it.
"go back to the world" that's how i used to think of it leaving a movie. which i so love movies. trained to be a film maker. cause i believed that the world i went to leaving the movie was what really happening. but it is no more true. leave that story behind, too because - it 's just entertainment.
i'm happy for you bro, but it's nothing compared to letting "your victory" go. that elation is epic. and i can't let you fall for this epilogue game of the clearing without at least letting you know.
that it's this moment that you have to let go. there's no victory because there was never any loss. there was never anything to overcome. but the belief.
Joseph had given me tremendous advice. his guidance along with all of TBE, Jason, and everything and everyone, has helped so much.
even to the point where i can see that it was all just a beautiful wonderful lie. and great story- but more just backstory for the One we're really here for.
this.
so, good on ya mate. hi five! hugs all around!
now, so what?
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Comment by Joseph on February 10, 2012 at 7:10pm -
K, Juancito, you unloaded what you feel was a chip on your shoulder.That is good. Once.
You don't know that, but you been preaching to the choir here, because there are more Mormons here than you could shake the stake in it or something like that.
So, now would be beneficial if you read your story one more, last time, and say good buy to what you so chose to remember.
That story brought you here, to now, be grateful for trip, and don't waste the energy on re-living those 'sad memories'.
And the sooner you forget (like not think about) all that mumbo jumbo in your head, sooner you be free from 'conditioning'.
Yes, only you have key.
Just another stroke of the feather.
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