moving beyond doubts

Happy with my evolving perspective and looking forward to December!  Thrilled best describes how i feel about my life right now.  It is rich, exciting, full of surprises and love.  After reading and commenting on a post by another TBE member about having doubts… i moved on to coordinate with Sianna for weekend in Tecopa.  Looking ahead to help her move next weekend i shared my week schedule as follows (my storyline:)

next week is busy busy, monday meetings from 10am to 10pm

tues working special event: King of the Hammers, 7 - 6

wed, open

thur am court ending child support; 4 – 7 public meeting

fri am work; pm You... time … :)

this stuff is almost funny because none of it matters to me and is having no effect on my mood; i look forward to this weekend in Tecopa meeting Le*Na, seeing Sianna and TBE neighbors.  Monday night is a public meeting in a town 50 miles away over our most contentious issue and where my organization lost a lawsuit last year.  Tues. is another day of King of the Hammer; largest desert off-road race, expecting 20,000 spectators in remote area ~ who like to drink and drive crazy!  Race sponsor appears to run course up against boundary of marine base (not fenced) to protest their planned expansion into countries largest OHV recreation area… this may be the last year the race is ran.  Thurs court 30 miles away w/x lawyer, end child support (money goes straight to kids for college:)  then another public meeting in town, controversial.

Just typing that makes me tired of thinking about it.  me just wants to go outside and play!

If your having doubts that is a good sign you are moving in the right direction and your ego and mego are conspiring and doing what they can to keep you from waking up.  If you didn’t have those doubts your mego would not be afraid you might figure it out and therefore would not generate feelings of doubt, it would lead you to a distracting reward and you would forget.

Be happy you found here friends

Here are a couple of cool videos about next week race... it is historic!

balance, here lil me worked the 35/50k calico run, heres #1 getting to ends of the earth...

my life now is like the warm, happy, reassured inside feeling you get near the finnish of a long run...