Becoming Lucid in This Dream

While it was difficult to turn the computer on and sit down to write this, I knew I wanted to try and get a snapshot of what I’ve been experiencing. To attempt to use words to explain the unexplainable of what it’s like being lucid in the dream.

I actually don’t know when it began. You could say, so far, I’ve been in “an” experience since the full moon a week ago. Like a preparation for the Big Truth I experienced tonight.

Full Moon night I connected with Luna and wrote a poem she whispered in my ear. Since that moment I was experiencing a Oneness Beauty with everything. Then I realized that my moon cycle was in time with her’s.. and it became even more powerful. A fully invested wave. And I sailed it with grace and ease.


I have been taking (a precursor to) the Scarlet Ibis, Initiation I Alchemy just before all the transformation began. My dreams have become another life I live when I rest. Food has taken a backseat and I’ve felt natural urges to do mini-fasts. My body is constantly buzzing and it feels that I could astral project at will. Things are feeling pretty good, I’d say..


To get to the meat, today has been very interesting. I awoke from a strange dream. Jason and I had some serious discussions and emotions were cranked to high. We decided I needed to take a bath and he called in some Goddesses to assist me.

I was to BE the conception of birth. The alchemical bath I prepared, or shall I say, ‘they’ prepared, was with Translumin, Activ8 companion water and some essential oils, Harmony and Rosewood. (My Goddesses).

I’ll spare much of the detail, but I will say, ‘they’ took over. Pouring the alchemical mixture down my throat and heart chakras, it opened me up. They continued to pour water and do what was needed. I was the observer, the participant and the Goddesses performing their role.

I was suspended in a stillness of amniotic water. I experienced the Nothingness, void of emotion, love or anything. It was incredibly still and peaceful there- like a womb. I also experienced Everything and potential of a higher self. I got the answers I was seeking because the questions become non-existent.

Jason was checking in with me throughout the day as I continued on this awakening journey. A new awareness set it. I went for a walk on the top of a mountain and turned to see the sun setting above the Great Salt Lake as the Eye of Horus. Of course.

Later this evening I watched a movie and it all shifted again. I went outside and enjoyed the twinkly starry night as the props that set the stage. I was aware of the cold, without feeling the cold.

These cartoon-modes have been frequenting me. I could not tell a difference between the characters in the movie I just watched, the interaction with a woman I’d had at the market or my strange dream the night before. IT WAS ALL THE SAME DREAM.

I was bursting.. with Love, with an expansion, yet again. I had to speak with Jason. Sure enough, he was bursting as much as I and could hardly talk. He told me to lie down and get comfortable. He talked me through the experience of waking in the dream.

I saw a thousand movies playing all at once and knew it was all the SAME MOVIE. My life, the actor’s lives, my mother’s life. All of it is the same dream.

I am the Creator of the Universe. I felt all my beauty, my wholeness as the Creator. It is so very sensual and beautiful.. especially knowing the falsity of it! I was basking in a very fluid, floaty dreamspace of Source. I was dancing and flying and being carried on wings.. It was like discovering you could breathe underwater and all of it felt so incredible. Like every cell of my body was jumping, twirling and dancing and making Love with everything.


This really does get even more incredible than I ever imagined. .