I was born in the south of England in a city called Portsmouth. I spent my early childhood suffering school up until music grabbed my attention in the form of the Beatles, Rolling Stones and many other great bands of that musical renaissance.
That was the period of mind expanding substances, which is when I started to see the world differently to the way in which most people around me saw it. I became very curious, collected and read books on magic, alchemy, kabala and etc. trying to figure out how it all worked. I met several people who had a strong effect upon my spiritual growth and who played an important role in my perception of the world.
When I was 32 I sold my business in Oxford and with a vague kind of idea of chancing my luck at living in France. I was then married and we had two young children. This was when I came across the rebirthing movement and Leonard Orr and subsequently Babaji or Haidakhan Baba as he was known. This was when I came across the concept of surrender, which at the time seemed a very noble kind of thing to do, to give up ones ego to god and become total spirit as it were. I didn’t feel at all ready for this because at the time I quite liked my ego and wanted to hang on to it for a bit longer! After ten years of bohemian living, fire ceremonies, rebirthing, playing music and the rest of it, my wife had had enough of trying to live with very little money and went back to England. We sold up, I went back for a short while, we separated and then I moved back to France.
I met a French woman, fell in love convinced she was my soul mate and over the next fifteen years had four children together. I had discovered Reiki healing on a trip to California in 1994 and became master teacher in 2000 so practiced reiki, initiated quite a number of people, got a reggae band together and played around the region and then, two years ago my wife walked out on me and my world stopped. I was devastated, I was incapable of keeping my small building business together, my life just fell apart. I felt utterly destroyed and lost. I got into debt, became depressed and felt really very sorry for myself.
I am only now beginning to see all this as a great opportunity! I had been forced to take a good look at myself and in the end not become sucked in by the great spiral of negativity that I had created around myself. Little by little hints would pop into my life, I would find stuff on the net which would lead me forward, Eckhard Tolle being one very interesting person, until one day I clicked on a banner on Rense.com and discovered the Blue Emerald! That was the day that an enormous amount of guilt left me when I realized that all my life I had been living out a script and that it was not ‘my fault’ that things had all gone wrong. In fact things hadn’t gone wrong at all, this was simply my pathway to realization. How cool is that?